honestly don't know how I can survive altogether these 6 years; it's quite interesting to note that. I honestly don't know whether being single or being married, which one is much better off? Being single has its own plus point; you can do anything you like, except you have to consider your parents. With the status of being married, such things extend to include your husband and your kids. You think more about the future and you have others to consider. Future planning still comes as first priority.
One thing for sure, with the status of being married, you always will have someone to talk to, and pour things wholeheartedly. I for sure know, I have someone to pour my heart, my feelings [happiness plus disappointments] without that person being judgmental towards me. You can be as silly as you wanted to, being the manja person as much as you wanted to, being the utmost sensible person in the whole world, and you will always know there's always someone waiting to catch you if you ever fall.
Of course, I'm still the sensitive person, we still have our bickerings. Matured? I honestly don't think that I'm a much more matured or much more sensible. Whether we are matured or not, it depends. Our minds and thoughts always clash, We have our ups and downs, we have our arguments and glitches. Afterall, ini dunia realiti, bukannya fairytale. (usually, is more likely) we tend to forget that we have to learn to ask for forgiveness. We learn a lot along the way of being together all these years. Forgiveness should start somewhere, and not as if we think we earned it.Kalau manis saja pun, tak sedap juga kan. Perlu juga masam, masin, pahit, tak gitu?
believe I have improved a lot since I married an offshore man who will be away two weeks a month. (We married on the month of my birthday celebration), I'm much more open to his opinions, and I’m trying to become a much better wife.
With such small expectations built, we hope our marriage will be everlasting up till here after, and I sincerely believe we will meet in heaven. (kalau tak masuk neraka)